Thinking and Thinking

Lying on my bed just now made me feels a lot of things that I've thought of

Sometimes i've been through things that i've wished i have amnesia and forget about it
Sometimes i've regretted for the things i didn't able to do or any chance to do
Sometimes i've regretted the words i've said
Sometimes i've regretted the decisions i've made

Yup, but to me, i know that i'm not alone

I think most of my life, i've lack of this fight that i have
To fight for the things, probably at first, but later because wants to make people happy, i've withdrawn
I always lack this, ever since young, this tenacity because of how i was brought up with

I wanna fight, even how tiring i am
I want to fight for whatever needs to be done
I want to fight for the cause of God

God, i will need more tenacity
The Tenacity to fight,so that at the end of my race i can say i have fight the good fight of faith

This is what i've always lack, but i'm determined to change this.
I'm persistent, but not tenacious

God, change my thinking

Love,
me