Moving..

Okay... i'm moving on to current topics
Past post(s) of self-evaluation talks about a lot of what i've know, yet what i've don't know

But I'm glad God gave me step by step analysis and letting me know what is the real meaning of heart and intentions

I'm glad that i'm the person right now, learning to be more like You

These few days, i was quite discourage or/was regretting a few things in my life:
Why the complexity of thoughts? Why my health? Why my situations?
But the thing is that i've learnt is to not cry over spilled milk, cause no matter what things happened in my life, it already happened. Sometimes simple thoughts and ideas been manifested to a whole lot of complications and things when things doesn't happen as it should be. But looking back..

If i were myself 5 yrs back, i don't even think i can survive much also.
If not for church, if not for my leaders, if not everything that happened

I won't be a person who is stronger, who has convictions that can be rooted in deeply, i'll probably be a passive person for life and still be stuck headed trying to ram into what things i'm gonna do, i'll will still steep into deep depression (Like lot of musicians, artist in history) and never get out
It's really exciting huh? huhu..

Although a lot of things i've done, i've made mistakes, i've sacrificed
But none better than what You have done for me, what SPs and Leaders done in my life

No matter what happens, All i desire, a heart that's after You

No matter what Dreams, Visions or revelations of God
I'm a Christian, i need to do what is the will of God, the Good, Perfect and the acceptable will of God

I shall be a man of abilities, an all rounder and a man of visions to what God calls me to do. Knowing that doing Your will is my utmost importance.

I'm encouraged, yet challenged, more is to come in my life to obey Him Willingly

Let my heart desires You totally. Let it be totally submitted to Your will, my intellect, my creativity, my music, my life, my heart, my mind, my soul. Let Your words stay and will not fall.


Let my heart desires You
Let my life live completely to You

For You are my desire.
It is an honor to love You with all my heart, my soul and my might.

Love,
me